I woke up with a headache, hot and sweaty. The upstairs in this house is about 20 degreesn hotter than the main floor...I swear...
I am having a regretful day today...I could list every regret I have so far on here and there would be someone besides me saying " yeah I get that one"... poor me ha ha...WHAT A PITY PARTY I AM HAVING TODAY!....

My first regret...Dating Steve....oh my parents hated him...that made him so much more attractive...I totally believe in my heart I would have had the same three kids but with a different guy....( that is my second regret,,or did he just want to get in my pants?) I will never
know.
#2 quitting IRS the first time to work at Continental airlines...I would have twenty years in by now
#3 quitting Continental airlines....9/11 really affected me in a negative way...
#4 thinking I knew everything there is to know about everything and thinking I was too cool
for everyone else...
#5 not fighting or standing up for myself for 20 plus years
#6 not going to school earlier...
nuff said for right now...I am just pissing myself off.

Today is July 17, 2009
Dick is home for a few days. The stove is screaming Yes I am going to get used....the microwave is screaming Yes I am going to rest for a few days....
I am glad for my kitchen bitch to be home again if only for a few days. Dick has gone on strike
several times, but he does not know yet that he has the job again.
No I am kidding. He is great and I miss him while he is gone.

I am going to be planning a trip to Idaho to visit my family.
I kinda feel like the kid from the parents that got divorced, you
know (the cousin you know is out there, but you never see).
well, my parents did not get divorced. My dad passed asway.
BIG DIFFERENCE.

July 13, 2009

Unfortunately cobwebs always come back...I can't even
spell my maiden name correctly...what's up with that?

I need to find me a job...I am getting lazy and spending
toooooo much time on the laptop.

Michelle's soccer coach used to have them come together
and yell after every practice, game or what ever...
"Everyday, Everyway Get a Little Better"
I need to take that to heart.

I am missing the life I have let slip by me today. I am
a little bitter because I was so spineless for so many years.
But it is growing and getting stronger by the day.

I AM NOT A JELLY FISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I have entered the blogging phase. Wow, what a day to start.
July 12, 2009. I am sitting here with my two favorite pity party
friends, Ben and Jerry. So I will start my story or blog here....

July 12, 1981. I had just graduated high school. I was hoping
that my life would start to get better, but I knew it would not.
My hopes of going to school and becoming this great business
administrator was quickly going down the drain. I was pregnant.
I knew college was out for awhile. So, after letting a summer love
know that I couldn't go to Alaska with him, I got married to
Steve Rankin, on July 12, 1981. Yeah, it was rocky, yeah we
were in love, we thought, yeah I was pregnant. We had broke
up right after graduation. I knew I was pregnant, so I event-
ually had to tell him. The day after I told my parents, I was
married. Yes I was very bitter.

So we eventually bought our first house. We were so proud
of ourselves. Uncle Lamar and Steve spent the next eight
months getting it ready to move in. We brought our
second child home. Our third child was brought to that
house too.

We then moved to Hooper Utah. We so did not fit in, that
is until the kids started playing soccer.

I know the time spent with Steve was worth having my
three kids. I wouldn't trade them for anything in this
world...Mandy, Michelle, and Cliff.

In 2000 my Dad died, Steve and split for the final time,
and I did some drastics things to change my life. Yeah
I have made a lot of mistakes, some that have changed my
life in the most negative ways. But I will deal with that
like I do every day.

In August of 2004, after Cliff had graduated and living
in Texas, I met C. Richard Craine...at first, I thought he
was a big @%#hole. But the buggerf was persistent.
In March of 2005, we moved in together, and on Christmas
Eve 2005, we got married in my mom's front room next
to the christmas tree. Just a few people there, we were
so nervous I felt like everyone in Ogden could feel my legs
shaking. But we are working on it everyday, we are happy.
I am happy.

Between us we have 13 grandkids. Six are actually mine.
Ryan, Destiny, Michael, Melanie, Zander, and Jacob.
Wow, I have had quite a life. Yes some heartbreak,
and alot of happiness...so this is where the blogs start....